The Dusty Grimoire

There is nothing keeping me here (steady paycheck aside) that warrants this behavior. Why do I feel the sense of loyalty that it takes to keep me coming back? Why, then, shall it all be for not. Why do I keep saying, “yes”? I know that working this much is going to kill me, or make me hate my job (I’ll take door number two, Alex) or worse- force my hand in harming those that keep asking me to work this much. I know it’s my own damn fault, but there is something to be said for the people who continue asking simply because they have not devised a proper alternative to the problem, and I’m not responsible for the hiring of new employees.

This entire rant, while frustrating and disorderly, is necessary in making my next point, by comparison.

The Will of a sorcerer (magician, Royal Lord Vladisucker, what have you…) is an important aspect of the magical intent and it’s worth in the working. While you can be an excellent sensor, able to perceive the very fibre of existence, if you don’t have the will to make the energies around to coalesce into the reality of your preconceived notions, you are a worthless sorcerer. I say this from experience, because I have been (on many occasions) a worthless magician. Intent is something that can be passionate and foolhardy- the willpower of a magician should be constant. One slight err could mean failure of your working.

That is not to say that distractions can’t work for you- they can, I’ve proven it many times that by pausing my intent and taking care of a bleeding roommate only to walk directly back into the working and finish it with success, is possible. Learning to put your magical awareness on hold simply takes will power.

“As I will it, so it shall be.” Is the staple of many workings simply because it feels right to say such things. Being a mentally inclined fellow I’ve always found it better to skip the words and foreplay (otherwise known as spell craft) and simply become the magic. For those of us not inclined as I (I’ve met hundreds that don’t conform to my brain, it’s okay, I love you anyway) I’ve always preferred the words “My will impervious, my command be done.”

It’s simple still, yet has an air of, “Bitch, get me my sammich!” It feels powerful to say these words- your meta cognizance understands that these are strong words. Want more oomph in your working? Go into alpha male (or female) mode, and allow the strong will to wash over you.

Without further ado;

Fin

As I sit and write this, a good friend of mine is sleeping. In fact, most of my friends are fast asleep in their little beds Dreaming fantastic dreams about nothing in particular that I’m yet aware of. I stay awake, because I’m paid to, not so much by choice, but it does give me time to ponder on many things.

Like Viral Constructs, for instance.

A viral construct is aptly named. They are constructs programmed to be self sufficient- much like cell division, they grow within their shell (or larger, if you’d tell them to. Most of mine I keep within the original shell, or infuse them to a host.) and become more adept at their purpose with each replication of the original “cell.”

Now, human’s have long since had the ability to create life. Not being one of those humans who wanted to do such things with my semen, I turned to magic. While many may draw or paint life onto a canvas, write it into the pages of a book, I forge it from the essence of my soul.

Creating a servitor is a very powerful process for many. Much like ceremonial magic the process for creating a servitor can be as grandiose or as simple as you want to make it. I’ve always been a fan of creating whatever fit the situation at the moment. Certainly people make thought forms all the time, and can even interact with them (I have a theory that this was how many myths developed, especially with personification demons like Lust and Anger) to fuel them in the same way that a magician would.

Think your kid’s imaginary friend isn’t real? You’d be so wrong. Since I have written a post simmilar to this on servitors, we won’t go there, however Viral constructs and servitors have something very pivitol to their creation in common- they grow.

Using viral constructs has many advantages. There are many things that you can create when using this technique. I’ve always used this technique to “infect” a person with a particular enchantment, that way it mutates and infests them with something very viral in nature. It’s a horrible thing to do, but it is a part of my shield that if people try to feed from me or attack me, they get one of these infections.

The Library is an inner temple that you create and utilize to enact astral or psionic rituals. This inner space is used as a sacred temple, where you can envision your seat of power, and even use it to go in-depth in something such as a past life regression or guided meditation.

When accessing the library, it’s usually easier to have someone guide you in, that way you can focus on seeing and feeling the area you are traveling to. Treating the experience as a guided meditation helps, and focusing on making the tactile experiences as real as possible will solidify this inner temple to you.

To begin, sit in a comfortable position, and focus on your breathing. In and out, slowly and with purpose. Feel your awareness in your mind, like a lighthouse on the shore. Drift to the center of your consciousness within the black void. Touch your awareness, feel it as a bead in your mind. Join with it.

With your awareness firmly in your grasp, “open” your minds eye. See yourself in the labyrinth of your mind. Trees and rivers run wild here. Trees guard your temple, and you must walk the winding path. As you take steps through the forest, feel your awareness expanding, becoming larger and all encompassing. Every step you take will make you aware of more space around you. Your awareness is permeating the forest now. You are aware and knowing of all the space within your mind.

As you stop walking, you see a large tree in front of you. On this tree, is a door, carved straight from the tree it’s self. You see the intricate designs carved into the door. As you reach out, and run your hand over the designs, you find that they spell out a word (or words). This (these) word(s) are your true name. Read them, know that you will remember them, and know that my speaking them they will bring you back to this place. Open the door.

As you walk through the door, close it behind you. Feel your awareness move into the room, taking up every inch of the room and filling it with your energy. As you close the door, you see a symbol carved into the wood. Reach out your hand, and trace the symbol. This symbol is your key, it will grant you protection from the outside world at a moments notice. Trace the symbol again, know that you will remember it, and know that just by thinknig of this symbol you will have the fortitude of the temple to protect you.

Turn to face the room. The space is much larger then it would seem from outside, and to the far wall is a glimmering pool. Before the pool is a sapling shaped into an ornate bookstand. On the sapling, is a book. The book is closed now. Walk over to the book.

You see that the cover is growing out of the tree, that the pages are ever growing out of the cover. You know that this living book is your link to all things you have done and experienced, from the first live to the present. On the cover is your personal symbol. You know that this symbol guards your past, and is the key to opening it’s knowledge to you. Run your fingers over the symbol, and know that you will remember it, and that by meditating on it’s shape you will be near this book, and read it to remember your past lives.

Look around the room, and see the collection of artifact from previous lives. What do the items say about who you are today? GO over to each one, and pick it up (if you can) and know that these things are yours, and they will remind you of skills and powers you’ve once had, and still have. Know that you will remember the items you’ve picked up, nd will have the chance to use them again.

Walk to the door of your temple, and see the symbol outside the door. Know that when you wish to come back, this symbol will guide you here quickly. Open the door, and walk out. As you do, feel your awareness go with you. See the forest in front of you. Close the door, and open your eyes. Allow yourself some time to adjust and come back to your body. Ground and center as you normally do, and write down your experiences.

This meditation is used as an introduction to your temple, and many variations of it have existed. I was introduced to a very different version of it several years ago on www.spiritonline.com, and have continued to use it since. I’ve printed it here knowing that it is a.) my own writing, and though many of the concepts have been written, it is an original document, and b.) that if it’s use will help someone grow and learn more about themselves, that I should share it.

Enjoy, and feel free to e-mail me or comment with questions.